Lean in

The only thing that you can take with you is what you have given away.  In that light, to find real love, or even to understand it again, you have to stop setting limits on what you're capable of doing/being/feeling/giving, across the board, and just DO it.  Stop making excuses, stop sabotaging, stop waiting; dance on the precipice of your knowing and WANT the strife that leads to a better you.  Yes, want the strife. Look for it. This means that you have to want the next 3 shitty jobs to get you to that 4th great one.  And in the meantime, be great at those jobs.  Be the best one there, because through the bullshit you become YOU, a more competent, sharper self.  And you have to date some duds and be willing to be a dud yourself, to screw up and fail and not know your own barriers of affection and challenge, so to find a close fit to the shape of your own heart.  Be bold and you will gain new eyes.  Courage, my dear, for no matter where you find yourself, courage to be the real you will set you in motion. Feel and be honest.  Inertia, my dear, for it is movement on small movement that leads you living toward the heart of God.  Acknowledge this day, my friends, and lean into your ignorance. Jump into the wind.  This is where we will grow as men and women.  We all have too much to learn and be to do otherwise.